Thursday, 27 September 2007

Genesis Revisted

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when I WAS, but did not know it
could not share it
I dreamt of you..
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I took myself apart and created you a Reality to live in
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Air
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Water
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Fire
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Earth
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The Light and the life and the Earth and the clay
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you would be ME
and I would BE
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"I AM"
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but...
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you were not what I expected
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you came from ME and yet you were more
you were YOU
not clay I could mould into My own Image
you were more
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I never expected that
It was a surprise
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It took me millions of years to get over the fact
I was the Creator, but not the Clone-Master
You did the only thing that I never have imagined..
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YOU surprised ME
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Thank you
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I never expected to grow from this venture
I never thought I could grow
You didn't take from Me..
You expanded Me
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My consciousness
My awareness
My Light
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You even gave it a name
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You called it..
Love
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Copyright Michelle Frost
with a dedication and thank you to "Peter, the potter". :-)

Wednesday, 26 September 2007

Newsflash - Crazy Week

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"NEWS FLASH is basically news or thoughts that may be changing over time - an update or an evolution of thought that covers a multiple of topics. It is what makes a blogger tick and it is the reason why we read."

Jeff


News (or current events)
my personal news of a very crazy week:

Monday - went to the doctor and suspects either problem A (ulcer) or problem B (endometriosis) has flared up again. Get medication for ulcer.

Tueseday - go into town with dad and buy a car! A Peugeot 406. Not new, but excellent condition. Dad'll be picking it up on Saturday. Hospital phones to say they can fit hubby in for knee surgery on Friday. Very unexpected!

Wednesday - go shopping for something to wear for my British citizenship and other new medication arrives by post. I went online and ordered some radical new herbal type thing for health problem B. Reviews on it online have been 90% favourable. If it works I'll pass on the name and website. Until I have proof it works - no free advertising.

Thursday - my Citizenship Ceremony. It was great. The local council (Morayshire) did a splendid job of making it as full of pomp and memorable ceremony as possible. We each had a local dignitary hand over an extra gift - a beautifully framed document in fancy calligraphy whereby Morayshire welcomed us as citizens of Moray, Scotland as well as of Britain. The Moray Convenor (like a mayor) said a very charming speech plugging Scotland and Morayshire. Afterwards there were home-made strawberry and cream tarts, ginger and custard cupcakes and tea or coffee. Hubby was going to take us all out for a celebratory meal after my citizenship ceremony, but since he had a cold, and was due in for surgery the next day, I cancelled till a later date. Instead we bought a good bottle of red wine and toasted the event over sausages and mash - can't get more British than that! Oh.. sausages were Scottish venison - to add a little Scottish "flavour" to the celebration. ;-)

Friday - Hubby in to hospital for keyhole surgery. It went well. He had quite bad damage to his knee cartiledge in three places. Good news is there is no sign of arthritis and damage was repairable. Extra good news is this was a work accident that the insurance has refused to pay out on for the last three years.. because their doctor says hubby has arthritis! Hopefully they (lawyers and insurance) can now start doing something about this.

Saturday - quiet day recuperating from week. We went and fetched the new car in the morning and spent the afternoon lazing round the house.

Sunday - Took the new car for a drive. Runs beautifully = dad thrilled. Made roast lamb with mint sauce and rosemary from my herb garden. Had home-made apple and brambleberry crumble (from back yard) with cream. *burp*

Entertainment (movies, TV, celebrity, etc.)
The new series of "Doc Martin" started on TV this week. Yaay! Our (whole family) favourite show is back!

Work (thoughts on the job or employer)
My husband loves his new job and, even better, new employees admit to loving (quote: "we like you a lot") husband.

Spirit (thoughts on God and/or the supernatural)
Last weekend I had a message from a guide come through for someone I know. I lost the plot once (if I start thinking about what I'm doing I lose the connection. You can't "hear" if your own thoughts are in the way), but I managed to get the entire message eventually. Got an email update this morning that the advice was useful and appreciated. Yaaay!

Family (or friends)
This past week about seven friends/family have emailed me wanting news updates, or with long intense emails that need serious replies. I can go for months with nothing but jokes in my email box and now I get swamped with people wanting to talk. Why is life like that? It always seems it's droughts or floods.

Love
The last few weeks I've realised how lucky I am in this department. I have a family, an extended family, in-laws and friends that I love and who love me. Yes, we get on each other's nerves and argue, but beyond that we all like each other and we all love each other.
As for LOVE.. I have a husband who puts my feelings first, is always ready to hug and be hugged, but knows exactly when I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. I am truly blessed.

Anxiety (a rant or a trouble)
Mmm.. see "News - Friday" above. Having hubby in hospital got me very freaked for some reason. Maybe the fact this was his first operation, or the fact my own bad health this year has left me a little "over emotional". Finding something to wear for the citizenship ceremony was a bit anxious too. First few shops nothing decent fitted and the only thing that did fit was a dress that made me look like a human shrub (floral print). I eventually found a very nice blouse that matched trousers I already own and mom and hubby bought me new earrings to match.

Sports
This weekend Scotland plays Italy (rugby).

Home (house, yard, or even another family type of thought)
Our house is so in need of a clean! I have to get doing that today. The last few months all routine flew out the window between having a house guest who took up too much time and me having a virus that made me keep getting dizzy spells. I kept up basic housekeeping, but there are dust bunnies lurking in secluded corners that have reverted to primordial megadustadons with ragged lint teeth. I have drawn one on Windows Paint for you to appreciate the true horror..



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Thursday, 20 September 2007

Beautiful Women

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HollyGL recently asked who we all thought of as being beautiful. At the time I hadn't a clue, but this morning I realised I can finally answer this question. I know so many beautiful women.. the list is endless, but for today I am dedicating this to the five who took my breath away this week.

This morning I discovered a good friend has taken a big step forward in her life. No, change that.. a LEAP Forward. She is in the process of claiming back her life and her power. Taking a step towards a wholeness she has never experienced in her entire life. I am so proud to know a woman as courageous as her. She has experienced a childhood from hell and yet never lost her humanity, humour.. or ability to love.

She is so beautiful.


Last weekend I was at my mother-in-law's house. She's in her 80s now and we got to talking about life.. and death. She has plans for her death and she needed to talk about them. She needs to feel certain that all of her family know how much she loves them before it is too late. We sat on the couch with our arms around each other and she talked and said all she needed to say.

She is so beautiful.


This Monday I went shopping. Later today I go to my citizenship ceremony and I needed shoes and a new outfit. So on Monday I went shopping with my mom. I was trying on a blouse and needed a second opinion. I peeked out the changing rooms - trying to find her. The shop was crowded and at first I couldn't see her. Then I saw this woman walking towards me. Walking with such grace.. even though she walks with crutches and has osteoporosis. She was smiling at another shopper and I realised how she GLOWS. As bright as a star. Walking and standing is almost always painful for her and yet she is always smiling and graceful.. and gracious.

She is so beautiful.


I have another friend who contacted me this week with email apologies. She had done something impulsively and feared it would hurt my feelings. It was such a silly little thing that I wanted to laugh.. but to her it was big because she loves me and never wants to cause me pain. She cares so much about our friendship that she worked herself into a panic over a tiny little act of impulse. This is the kind of woman she is - She can be moody and snappy and as human and flawed as we all are, and yet she has this heart as big as a planet and such a tenderness of spirit.

She is so beautiful.


I have a family member with cancer. This is not her first time. She has been here before. She has fought this battle.. and won. Now once again she faces the same old demons. Never once does she complain about the unfairness of life or show any signs of self pity. She is fighting this battle with humour and determination and such grace of spirit.


She is so beautiful.

Tuesday, 11 September 2007

At This Moment - by Susan

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Several of my close friends have recently been talking to about the ongoing struggles in their lives. People in situations where they feel as if they are fighting to stay afloat and swim against the tide. People depressed and frustrated at the fact they are getting nowhere.

Everything we are taught in life revolves around the theme of struggle being a part of life. In Nature, at school and work, even in relationships the theme is that nothing comes easy - it all takes hard work. Struggle. We are taught to revere Progress as the greatest god of them all, even more respected than that other most powerful Western Idol - Money. We fear inertia more than death. We have lost the ability to simple "BE".

I've tried to figure a way to say that for over a week. All my brain can come up with is "Stop trying and just TRUST." Then last week I came across something a friend had written that is, in my opinion, just perfect. I can't say it better than she has, so I asked her permission to quote from her writing and she has graciously agreed.

Thank you to Susan, both for saying this so eloquently and for allowing me to share it here. :-)

At this moment...

I have come to a standstill……not searching or looking, not depressed and unhappy…….I just seem to be in this moment going nowhere…..I am waiting……For what I have no idea…..

I just have always felt that I must push myself and get somewhere I am supposed to be……

I have no idea where that place is……so I have stopped……no more looking and searching….spirit know I am here….my family know I am here……as do my friends…….those that wish to find me know where to look……….

If there is something that I must do in this lifetime then it will be done…..when I know what that something is I will move forwards…..

This is not something written with tears or anger…..for some strange reason I feel at total peace…..and I know when the time is ready I will be shown my way forwards…so until then I shall live in the moment……

I have no power to bring to me that which I desire…..so I let it go…….

I know people will argue the power of positive thinking……but…..sometimes while filling ourselves with all the hype of things, we miss that which is surrounding us without fighting and praying and wishing so damn hard for it all…..

So now, I look in the opposite way…….working out that which I do not want….cutting the threads on all that has held me down in the past…..it will take a while…..but before I can move onwards…….I need to be free of that which is not destined to be …….

Where does that leave me……it leaves me free to be that which I choose to be…not having to have approval, not having to give more of me than I am able to give…..

With time my path forwards will come to light……

until then I shall just BE…

~ copyright Susan ~

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Me :-)

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I figured it was about time everyone knew what I looked like.. beyond being "Simpsonised". ;-) This was taken on New Year's Eve 2006. Me and my husband, Sandy (Alexander).


Monday, 10 September 2007

Knocking on the Door

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I have lived on the lip
of insanity,
wanting to know reasons,
knocking on a door. It opens.
I've been knocking from the inside!

Jelaluddin Rumi
13th century sufi mystic

Friday, 7 September 2007

Interview

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I had to post this picture from my blog interview with Mike Thomas of bloginterviewer.com. It feels like one of those mirror-within-mirror picture effects.

If anyone wants to check out my interview - go here.

Thank you Mike. It certainly was a challenge, but fun, figuring out answers to all the questions. :-)

Thursday, 6 September 2007

The Birthday Event Meme

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I am very late in getting this one done! August was a hectic month, but hopefully I'll be back on track in September.

This meme instructions:

"Go type in your birthday in Wikipedia (month and day). Write down 3 events, 2 births, 1 holiday and tag 5 friends."

My birthday is 7 August.

One Holiday


"Emancipation Day"
Turks and Caicos Islands









Two Birthdays



- David Duchovny of the "X Files"
- Mata Hari - World War II spy










Three Events

- 1840 The British Parliament passes an Act prohibiting the use of 'climbing boys' as chimney sweeps.
- 1925 Britain introduces Daylight Saving
- 1926 The first British motor racing Grand Prix is staged at Brooklands

I'm not going to tag anyone. If you haven't been tagged and like this idea - please feel free to take up the birthday challenge!